I pushed myself harder; wind whipped at my body-chilling my exposed skin. Tears worked their way down my face, my chapped lips parted ever so slightly as I raggedly inhaled and exhaled. Pain shot through my chest, and it brought me to my knees. This was it, this was the end, and I knew it.
His image filled my mind, and I held onto it with every fiber of my being. It brought me warmth, even for the most fleeting of moments. But as quick as it came, it was gone and I was left with nothing but searing pain. It coursed through my veins like a live wire-charring me from the inside out.
He broke his promise, and I broke mine. We were meant to be, I knew that for a fact. Why did he leave me? I knew the type of life he wanted. I knew everything about him. I could tell you what made him tick, but I also could recite his favorite color, his favorite song, and even his favorite ice cream flavor.
We always just clicked, even when we were younger-we somehow knew we would end up together. But when he joined the army two years ago, and was shipped out to serve our country-he knew that would be our breaking point. He promised me that he would return and we could resume our relationship.
But he also knew that I could not, I would not, live without him. He was my safety blanket, and he left me when I needed him the most. But just like I knew, he knew that when he boarded that plane… it was the end. Things would change, he would change, and I would change. We would grow up.
I love you. I love you oh so much. Snow fell from the heavens above, and I managed to merely pull my thin sweater closer to my body. But I did not turn back and head home. Putting one foot in front of the other, I ventured farther into the trees that surrounded the outskirts of our small town.
The town where I was born, the town where I was raised, the town where I met my best friend, the town where I discovered love, and the town where I had my heart ripped from my chest. My breathing, at this point was coming in savage gasps and pants-my airways were closing from the cold, my body was freezing.
I need you. Why’d you leave me? I need you… Energy seemed to drain from my body, escaping through my pores and leaving me with nothing. Curling into a tight ball, I pressed my body up against one of numerous trees. Snow continued to fall, heavier by this point. Two feet already covered the ground.
Black dots began to swarm before my rolling eyes, my parched blue tinged lips curled upwards faintly in a peaceful smile. Tremors wracked through my body, yet a strange warmth rushed through my veins and I welcomed it with open arms. My eyes drifted close… for the last time. One final breath whispered from my lips.
I’m sorry. Please forgive me. I love you.